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you.
Saturday, June 13, 2009 at 12:47 AM

what kind of wake-up call is this?

morning started with you all over in my mind.



why?

i have already succeeded placing you aside.
but there seems to be mediums that is retractin' you back to me.


resurfaced, remembered.
siding there, hiding there.


why?


i am not trying to say that you're just unforgettable.
and i don't want to forget you either.

but thing is, you're a friend.


we may not be close, we may not be there.
but you're just there, and close to something that beats.



why?


can you help me?
if you know what you're feeling, then can you help me?

by being more than just a friend - a very much good friend.


i am not confessing or what-so-ever.
i just need some false "phrases" be not there when it's supposed to not be there.


maybe you know me, but if so, then do something for me.

maybe a favor, or maybe just more.

i don't know.
i'm confused.

i can't think straight.
my mind is not clear.


friends just kept reminding me of some things that are lost.
for now, i rather not have those thoughts.



i just want us to be good friends.
is that hard to give?

maybe i have to earn it.
but i just don't want others to think otherwise.

they keep thinking me as 'the lost past'.
i'm not fretting over the past.

sometimes spilt milk are as good as expired milk.
i'm not saying it is, but that's up to you to think.


all i wanted was a future.
but if you guys just keep assuming stuff, then how am i supposed to acquire such?

you know me, then you'll tell me.
i just need to you to prove that point that is in your mind.

you hide stuff.
even your best-friends do not know about it.

you used to tell me stuff, but now you don't.
i know i made one too many wrong moves.

i admit, i kept reacting on impulse.
i didn't think before i did those.

all i want now is not exactly to rewind time, but to give a chance.

chance to renew something that has been casted aside for ages.
at least that is what i felt.


sometimes, i just wished that my amnesia would last long.
or maybe become permanent.


this is not about 'getting over' or 'moving on'.
but changing the form of these vague feelings.


memories are not clear for me.
so i can't really see things the way they are or how it used to be.


so i'm asking, will you give me a chance?
meet up and let's start all over.


as gullible and goofy i may seem, it's just an act based on laziness.
i'm just too lazy to "heal" things.



now, i really don't know what to say..


i just hope you don't take it the wrong way.
just like many others did.


good friends, is just the very least i ask for.
but it's all up to you.


just show your answers to me.
make it obvious.
'cause i just want to see it clear.



please?
maybe i need some sleep after staying out the whole night..


just so you know, i still can be that confidant, if you want.


take care,
..and just remember.

listen, to my heart-keys..